I decided to play necromancer and try to start blogging again. For a while there, I was doing pretty good. Then the holidays hit and it got lost in the shuffle. So here I am, a little over 3 months later from my last post. I'm not going to update on my life or anything. I'm just going to pick up where I left off.
Except maybe now picking up is different. Someone out there who happens to be reading this tell me that I'm not the only one who goes through this. The questioning of your faith. Your spiritual ways. I am a Pagan and I don't hide that fact. For the past 4 or 5 years, I've been seriously studying Hoodoo. I've always practiced it in some way, but just didn't realize it. Well, things in that area are starting to slow down for me. I realize that I want to be a Goddess worshiper again. Hoodoo isn't dark or evil or anything near that. But I think I'm ready for the "love and light" again that truly being one with the Goddess has to offer. The thing is is that I've been away for so long that I don't know where to start again. Just the other day, I dismantled both my altars. One was for St. Michael and Lady Fortuna and the other was a general anything goes altar. I re-did my altar for St Michael on my fireplace mantle. He will always have a special place in my heart, no matter what. The other altar, every thing just got put away. I need to have an altar up. It makes me feel closer to what I am doing or trying to do. I don't want the classic Wiccan altar--candle goes here, chalice goes here, so on so forth. I've never been that way. My altars have always been Eclectic, like me. But now I'm ready to set up an altar specifically for the Goddess. I am a daughter of Hekate, but She will have Her own altar. I want this one to be a general altar. I'm going to be doing my own research in the next couple of days to get an idea of what I need to do. I don't have a big area to work with, but if I have to pack every single square inch with something, I will. I'm going to be doing some thrift store shopping later today for a table. Here's to hoping that the Goddess is with me in my efforts to please her!!
More to come on this later!!!
Carry your altar in your heart. Then it will be with you wherever you go to worship. I know what you mean about coming back to the Goddess's love and light. It's a good feeling. When Isis wraps her fluffy wings around me I think nothing can be any better :) Love you <3
ReplyDeleteYou have to follow what your heart tells you, and if that means having an altar or not, it's all up to you :) I have an eclectic altar as well, I don't have anywhere near the tools most have on theirs, but I enjoy what I do have. The Goddess understands and embraces whatever decision you make, so go free :)
ReplyDeleteI definitely want to have an altar! I just don't know what to put on it again!
DeleteSounds perfect to me. You have to do what is right for *you*, have on your altar what is right for *you*, and that stuff may be changeable anyway. I like to think that an altar always grows with its pagan / witch. :)
ReplyDeleteHow about getting out into the open, going somewhere that nature can influence your choices rather than shops Mikki. I never struggle to come home with a whole heap of things that remind me of the Goddess when I do that. Obviously I don't find things like candles or altar cloths but you probably have plenty of those anyway. Just a suggestion if you are finding it difficult to start. I'm looking forward to seeing what you come up with. xxx
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