Biography of a Witch aka Me!!

Biography of a Witch aka Me!!

My name is Mikki. I am recently 35 (2/24/77) I am married for 11 1/2 years (8/04/00). We have 2 kinds--9 yr old daughter and 5 yr old son. I also have an 18 yr old son. (I'll do the math for you--I was 16) I am a S@HM and wife. My husband is a police officer for 4 years now. I am the oldest of 4 kids. My parents have been married for almost 40 years.

And I am a Witch.

I realized I was different around the age of 8, but didn't come to terms with it until around the age of 13 or 14. We went to church a lot when I was around that age and something just didn't feel right. I felt there had to be more out there. It was around the age of 13 that I first heard the term "Pagan". Now you gotta remember, this is WAY back before Internet. So I had to find out things the old fashioned way--dictionery and encyclopedias!! But once I found the information, I knew it was me!

PAGAN

A couple years later, I started practising my own rough form of witchcraft. When I was 16 and we had moved to Alabama, I discovered Wicca for the first time. Where I lived in Louisiana, we didn't go to or have local bookstores.  The book that I found was “The Wicca Spellbook” by Gerina Dunwich. I still have that book somewhere!! Like most people that age, I was looking for a love spell. I soon learned that there was more to it than that! At 18, I started college and the Internet was a newborn baby! I was able to absorb so much more info on a more readily available basis! Between that, and the books I had access to, I was able to soak up twice the info in less than half the time!! By this time, I was 2-3 years into doing my own rituals, spells, etc.   

WITCH

At 21, I self initiated using the Scott Cunningham ritual in his books, “Wicca: A Guide for the Solitary Practitioner” At 23, I started training in an Isis Priestesshood and dedicated myself to her. At 25, I dedicated myself to Hekate. At 27, I stopped fighting my inner demons and embraced the fact that I didn’t have to follow a specifically named path. Nor did I have to be officially initiated to be a Witch. I have never been part of a coven nor will I ever be.   

Here are some more shirt and quirky tidbits about me:  

I believe in karma, reincarnation and the 3 Fold Law.
I am Eclectic.
I am a Witch.
I am dedicated to Hekate, Isis and Bast.

No, I won’t do a love spell for you. I don’t agree with messing with free will as it messes with my karma. You are more than welcome to do it on your own and I will provide you with the answers on how to do it.   

I despise fluffy bunnies. Catherine Noble-Beyer has defined Fluffy Bunnies in the following terms:
The primary definition of a Fluffy Bunny is one who refuses to learn, refuses to think, and refuses to consider the possibility that they could possibly ever be wrong. Generally, they find one book, author or website and follow it as if it were the holy word, frequently denouncing anything that disagrees with it as obviously false. Fluffy Bunnies rarely get past the defense of "Because [insert favorite author here, (friend)] says so." Sometimes they don't even get that far, responding to any and all criticism with something like, "You're just trying to persecute me!"[from wikipedia]

Which I think is a damn good fit. No, millions of witches did not burn or hang in the 1600s. Yes, your friend/neighbor whatever may say this, but it’s not always the right way. Learn other options then go from there. Read, learn then read some more. When in doubt, ask questions.  And no, you don’t know it all. Hell, I don’t even know it all. And neither do the 70 year old witches gallivanting all over the place. And if someone tells you differently, turn around and walk away.

There are 2 things I don’t argue--politics and religion. Politics, I won’t lie. I don’t know a damn thing about nor do I care. I also don’t pay attention. Religion is something personal and I think everyone has their own right to do what they want. If that includes eating babies, then okay. That’s on them. But I will stand up to someone who outright criticises Christianity or Judaism. Part of my family are Christians and part are Jewish. And I am very close to my family. I have lost friends over such things. But I don’t care. My family means the world to me and I will stick up for their beliefs.

I have no qualms with hexing or cursing someone. I have done it and will do it again if the need arises.

With that said, it’s obvious I’m not all “love and light”. I follow what I consider a Twilight path. No, it’s not about sparkly vampires. It’s about walking the line of light and dark, where both meet, but not enough to cancel the other out. Most of my workings are done with the dark moon instead of the normal full moon. I have a darker, more evil soul than most, even though I don’t show it all the time.

I’ve only been out of the broom closet for about 3 or 4 years now.  

I love the Goddess in all Her forms. 

In conclusion:
I am a Witch. I walk with the Goddess and I honor Her on a daily basis. I walk a fine line between the dark and the light, what I like to call a Twilight path. Because for me, there is no light without the dark.
I've been a Pagan for 30+, practicing for almost 18. I consider myself Eclectic since I follow my Louisiana HooDoo roots, Hedge Witchery, Kitchen Witchery and the Egyptian trad. I work with herbs, candles and crystals. I will not and do not hesitate to do what some consider darker magic. I am a Daughter of Hekate. I also honor Gaia, Isis and Bast.

It's been a while!

I decided to play necromancer and try to start blogging again. For a while there, I was doing pretty good. Then the holidays hit and it got lost in the shuffle. So here I am, a little over 3 months later from my last post. I'm not going to update on my life or anything. I'm just going to pick up where I left off.

Except maybe now picking up is different. Someone out there who happens to be reading this tell me that I'm not the only one who goes through this. The questioning of your faith. Your spiritual ways. I am a Pagan and I don't hide that fact. For the past 4 or 5 years, I've been seriously studying Hoodoo. I've always practiced it in some way, but just didn't realize it. Well, things in that area are starting to slow down for me. I realize that I want to be a Goddess worshiper again. Hoodoo isn't dark or evil or anything near that. But I think I'm ready for the "love and light" again that truly being one with the Goddess has to offer. The thing is is that I've been away for so long that I don't know where to start again. Just the other day, I dismantled both my altars. One was for St. Michael and Lady Fortuna and the other was a general anything goes altar. I re-did my altar for St Michael on my fireplace mantle. He will always have a special place in my heart, no matter what. The other altar, every thing just got put away. I need to have an altar up. It makes me feel closer to what I am doing or trying to do. I don't want the classic Wiccan altar--candle goes here, chalice goes here, so on so forth. I've never been that way. My altars have always been Eclectic, like me. But now I'm ready to set up an altar specifically for the Goddess. I am a daughter of Hekate, but She will have Her own altar. I want this one to be a general altar. I'm going to be doing my own research in the next couple of days to get an idea of what I need to do. I don't have a big area to work with, but if I have to pack every single square inch with something, I will. I'm going to be doing some thrift store shopping later today for a table. Here's to hoping that the Goddess is with me in my efforts to please her!!

More to come on this later!!!